in thoughts...

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

yah well. never really felt like the youngest in the family anyway.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Nayoko Reizei

if i were a boy:

Your Japanese Name Is...

Shunichi Shigenoi

this one is quite funny:

Your Kissing Purity Score: 83% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed

the rhyme thing la.. ha.. weird..

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

this bugger who lives 2 floors above me has this freaking habit of pouring his remaining water out of the window. bloody idiot.
when he pours it out of the window where my table is at, it sometimes splatters unto my laptop or notes.
it just happened that on TWO of the few occasions i hang my clothes to dry at the other window i have, he poured water from that window. BOTH times.
what luck.
i shudder to think about the original use of the water before he decided to pour it down.
at first i wasn't sure who was it - i'm staying on the 5th floor, so it has to be either the 6th or 7th floor person.
thought about going up one day to confront him/her after one of the occasions when my clothes kenna, then decided against it. wasn't a lot of water, and well i was lazy la.
then last wed night, the bugger poured COFFEE out of the window.
@&#^#%@^#&
eeeeeeeeeediot la.
and then i heard clearly from above me, this girl shouting,
"HEY GUY LIVING UPSTAIRS, DUN POUR YOUR FUCKING COFFEE OUT OF THE WINDOW OK?"
think she scolded something else, i can't remember.
but i was like, coolness. it was about 1am or so. haha.
almost wanted to echo it, but then i vaguely remembered in the hostel rules and regulation they said cannot say vulgarities la. ha. must save my ass.
but really la. if it's raining you wanna pour water it's fine.
if it's not raining and you wanna pour water, just dun make my clothes wet or dirty la.
even if your water was clean, by the time it passes thru dirty ledges to drip unto my clothes, it's not very clean le.
and splash onto my laptop and speakers? no insurance leh friend, you pay ah?

***
was waiting for lift to go downstairs that day.
lift door opens, this guy standing inside, wearing one sock, other sock in hand, a pair of shoes on the floor.
erm. okie. i step into the lift.
it's 5 floors down.
i hold my breath.
he flings his remaining sock up and down VIOLENTLY to shake out i dunno what (the socks are apparently worn before one)
I look at him in disgust and hope my breath lasts till i get fresh air on ground floor.
(i'm standing behind, diagonal to him so he din catch my disgusted look)
and door had to open again at level 2 to let this other guy in.
urgh.

disgusting la. he better not be the bloody idiot who pours water out of the window.

***
went to zhen's CARE volunteers orientation today!
and this is so cute - 4 of the volunteers were from VJ, and the two that i talked to were from CIC, my CCA in JC! ha
was telling them that i was their super-old senior.
and it's so funny.
finally found someone who, like me, doesn't play those games like black magic, the MRT game, the who-died game and so on.
and the amazing thing? she ALSO forgets the answer even after figuring it out or after having people tell her the answer.
my gawd. so like me. ha
and we're from the same pri sch!! ha
i mean, i like solving riddles, codes etc, but the games dun really make much sense to me. ha

speaking of riddles and codes,
finally finished reading the rule of four.
reading the blurb and all the comments by reviewers, all the talk about "if you liked the da vinci code, you'd love this", and stuff like this is the more intellectual version of the da vinci code
over-hyped la. good thing i got the cheaper but still in wonderful brand-new condition one.
the authors took 6 years to write the book.
the codes were good but somehow the writing didn't engage me.
confusing plot.
the main character, Tom, would have been a wonderful patient for psychoanalysis though.
all the unresolved issues with his dad, later with his friend.
very confusing.
still prefer the da vinci code.
the movie better be good. really.
me and p were saying that tom hanks is a weird casting for Langdon, but oh well.
at least we get good acting.
next year. next year.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

You Are 80% Weird

You're more than quirky, you're downright strange. But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.

Your Hair Should Be Purple

Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional. You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights.

just found out that The Da Vinci Code's gonna be out in cinemas in 2006!!

http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/thedavincicode/

gonna have tom hanks and ian mckellan!!

*jumps around in joy*

it has to be good..
it better.. ha.

was a good night last night
okie food, okie dessert, nice drink
but wonderful company

if anything become clearer to me last night
it was how much all this has become a cause lost
how we secretly all knew in our hearts
what would result in a rational better ending
but how we didn't want to give in to the "dark forces" at work
how we didn't want to give up without a fight
but if this fight is gonna perpetuate the suffering
then what is all this for?
ancient china has seen the rise and fall of dynasties
and each dynasty dying out has always tried to fight that last good battle
even after a new dynasty is up, they want a restoration
but i've always felt
as long as the commoners are living the good life
that's good enough
in wanting to keep the legend, we subject the people to war and suffering
what's the point?
drawing a parallel, we didn't lose the mandate of heaven
as what they said about the emperors of waning dynasties
we just faced an external phenomenon - like westernisation
did guns make martial arts obsolete?
you can't compare the two like that.
we're just that unborn child who got aborted before we could live out a life of potential.
and in obsessing over how to mete out justice the way we see fit,
we're like those scary vengeful baby spirits who come back to haunt the mothers who aborted them
in those old fashioned chinese movies.. or rather hong kong movies. ha
i'm thinking of all those ghostbuster shows where rooms are always in eerie red lights. crap.
and i can imagine the faces of the ghostbusters coming to get us. okie total crap now.

everyone of us was right last night, in what we said
there are no easy answers, no clear cut solutions
there is a lot of uncertainty - what can we do?
how much should we do?
how will that change things?

i dunno.
i've always thought i was a pessimistic optimist.
now i can't be sure.

got this off shiyun's:

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance. You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea. The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood. It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet.

***
what my tuition kid told me yesterday:

girl: my teacher very rude..
me: why?
girl: she asked us who have tuition teachers at home, so we raised up our hands. then she said that we can throw our tuition teachers into the dustbins because we dun know how to construct a triangle.

^%$#*@

no i din say that in front of my tuition kid of course.
but wah lau. throw ME into the dustbin? better be pure gold dustbin with gold dust in it.
hello ms so-clever-teacher, dun confuse your incompetence with mine.
if you were that good in the first place, my supposed incompetence wouldn't even get the chance to show.

really dun like this school. science teachers tell them to go and buy their own bulbs and batteries and stuff to do experiment on their own cos they dun have time? and only the EM1 classes get to do the experiments. coincidence?

took this picture when i was sitting on the front seat on the upper deck of double decker bus.

kinda like the way the advertisement pasted over the window/windshield distorted the lights.

lights from cars and vehicles in front, traffic lights.

it's a matter of perspective i guess.

looking at life from another angle now, things ain't so bad.