in thoughts...

in my opinion, a good book
not better than tuesdays with morrie in terms of content
but better in terms of ideas of organization, and rather insightful in terms of the conception of the idea of afterlife

having people to explain your life to you
why some people died so you could live
to find peace in your life after you died
i think i need that
that would be nice

because right now
there are so many things i don't understand
i can't see where all this is leading me to
i can't tell if what they say is true
so how can i decide if i should go in that direction?
i dunno why i am the way i am now
why did i turn away?
how did i drift so far?
why am i resisting so much?
who can i listen to?
i don't like what i'm hearing
and i'm stubborn
is this what you are really like?

for the peace i want to have with myself
maybe this is the storm that i have to weather myself
but why are you making it so hard?
just show yourself
for who you are
stop making me guess
cos i really dun like what i hear about you
and i'm really questioning
maybe on the day i die
i'll realize that all this is just a fragment of our imagination
hah